He saw it. For the briefest of moments he saw her.... sitting atop that horse and crying- but she looked at him with a smile that told him she was thankful for what he did. He had defeated her and everything had disappeared- when the barrier dropped he too reverted back to being a human, his Digimon form much too large to stay in that alley. Kouji glanced down, looking at her body as it lay on the floor.
For a moment he was still, completely frozen, his expression hadn't changed from that hardened gaze- looking almost like he did back when he first joined the community, someone who was rude and didn't talk much. He had grown up a lot since that first day, and he wanted to grow more... along with her, along with his sister.
Suddenly all the emotions he had been holding in flooded back to him and he felt his knees grow weak. Kouji's knees hit the ground and he just continued to stare... it was like the world around him was gone and the only thing he was focused on was her, Kyouko's body as it lay completely still. Slowly he crawled over to her, looking her up and down. She looked completely fine, but he knew she wasn't just asleep.. there was no way... he reached out to her and touched her face, noting it was still warm under his touch.
"Nee-chan..." and the tears started to fall yet again. He wanted to hold them back and be strong for her, but it was useless- he couldn't... he couldn't be strong right now... Kouji reached down to her body and picked up her upper half, holding her against him as he cried, "Kyouko...!"
She was gone, she had left him... just when he felt like he was becoming closer and allowing people into his heart this had to happen. This was exactly why he never let anyone in, he never dropped that barrier of his since he always just got hurt. He was too soft- much too soft... he vowed he would close his heart again, not even letting Kouichi in. No, if he lost Kouichi too he wouldn't be able to handle it. He would stay with his brother but never let him get close enough... never wanting to be hurt again...
Kouji cried as he held her, his cries falling on deaf ears- for the only one he wanted to hear him was now dead.
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For a moment he was still, completely frozen, his expression hadn't changed from that hardened gaze- looking almost like he did back when he first joined the community, someone who was rude and didn't talk much. He had grown up a lot since that first day, and he wanted to grow more... along with her, along with his sister.
Suddenly all the emotions he had been holding in flooded back to him and he felt his knees grow weak. Kouji's knees hit the ground and he just continued to stare... it was like the world around him was gone and the only thing he was focused on was her, Kyouko's body as it lay completely still. Slowly he crawled over to her, looking her up and down. She looked completely fine, but he knew she wasn't just asleep.. there was no way... he reached out to her and touched her face, noting it was still warm under his touch.
"Nee-chan..." and the tears started to fall yet again. He wanted to hold them back and be strong for her, but it was useless- he couldn't... he couldn't be strong right now... Kouji reached down to her body and picked up her upper half, holding her against him as he cried, "Kyouko...!"
She was gone, she had left him... just when he felt like he was becoming closer and allowing people into his heart this had to happen. This was exactly why he never let anyone in, he never dropped that barrier of his since he always just got hurt. He was too soft- much too soft... he vowed he would close his heart again, not even letting Kouichi in. No, if he lost Kouichi too he wouldn't be able to handle it. He would stay with his brother but never let him get close enough... never wanting to be hurt again...
Kouji cried as he held her, his cries falling on deaf ears- for the only one he wanted to hear him was now dead.